i am trying reaallyy harrdd..

Am I good enough.

I love my boyfriend, yay!

you mean alot to me.

too good to be true?

You think you meet the perfect guy..but then why have doubts?

Shes not in love, shes in love with the idea of being in love. Love is overrated and nobody really understands it because its so much to take in at once. So what exactly is the point of this entry....i  dont know. i just felt like writing something.

A few days ago I looked at my old entries, where I was only 15. Where I was crushing on one my friends. And as I look back and compare to how I am today, I can finally see how much Ive changed. As I started clicking "earlier entries" the journal entries got worse and worse and worse. I was such a dumb little immature kid lol. And what surprised me was how much I was cursing! Back then it was all about this guy and and this guy was the cause of my emotions and how i felt each day. I suppose it was like my last crush but worse, because I sounded so depressed. Today I cant even get like that! I might think I like someone, but yet I dont feel anything. Its not enough for me to like someone. Because all I can think about is God. Today is October 1st and dat means that in 23 days I will finally be 18. Whoah. I know I act weird at times, but its just me being goofy. Im going to Germany for christmas and new years eve..i cant wait! 

I went to my first football game yesterday! it was so much fun. We won! Woohoo. oo0o0 My roomates just walked in with food. Now im hungry. Laterz.

Do you ever have one of those days ..or maybe months..when you cant really talk to your old friends because you cant relate to them? Well I have. I think it comes to a point when you realize who your true genuine friends are. 

We are so tiny. God has us by his fingertips. This picture is thousands of light years away. 

=0

Went to miami beach to try to see the miami vice premiere live...nope got there late. Got lost. and didnt see anyone cept talked to some guy who used to be in the major leauges for baseball in the 70s. Also watched guys breakdance. and saw tons of ppl with vip passes. oh saw rich ppl. Just with looking at their face one can ponder what they are truly feeling. and just how different they are...but i still smiled...I really didnt care if i saw colin ferrel or jamiie foxx. but it would have been cool...

I also went to the beach earlier...and my face is P I N K !

it hurts =/

Lesson for the day: Wear sunblock!

TOMORROW IS ROOTS.!!! SO EXCITED!! =)

GOOD NIGHT!

Unfortunately, my eye is still twitching. It has been like 3 days now. Scratch that i meant four.



I deleted my profile @ myspace. Why? Ive had it for too long and it was getting boring. I think I would rather read a book that read thousands of profiles. But thats just my opinion. I just dont care for it anymore.